Upset and Outraged…

Today, behind closed doors (hmmm, what does that tell you right there), the Govenor of the State of Indiana signed into law SB 101…otherwise know as the Religious Freedom bill. Don’t let that fool you. What it really is, is Religious Condemnation.

I AM ENRAGED AND OUTRAGED!!! you should be too. They claim it is a “safegauard against businesses being forced to provide services they find objectionable on religious grounds.” What? That, like I saw somewhere is like me being mad at you for eating a donut because I’m on a diet….Really?…Unfortunately, the Bible has been so far twisted by many that they can find a “religious reason” for anything they see fit. It has already happenend in SC at a BBQ restaurant where they used this same “religious freedom” to deny service to African Americans. See where this can go….scary.

As Matthew Tully wrote in the Indianapolis Star, this proposed law is “discrimination wrapped in a legislative bow.” he is correct. All this does is legalize bigorty and discrimination. Shame on the Indiana lawmakers once again. We’ve just wound ourselves back 200 yrs yet again.

Maybe it is to simplistic to say…but…if you want to chose who you will serve or more realisticly lets just say it….who you WON’T serve, then you should be a PRIVATE place NOT in a PUBLIC place trying to serve and be finacially be rewarded. Green is green no matter who is giving it to you. Shame on them for using or hiding behind religion to disciminate against people based on their sexual orientation, race, gender, or anything else.

I would like to say BRAVO to St. Elmo’s restaurant, Harry and Izzy’s, Gen Con ($50M loss), The Disciples of Christ Christan Church ($6M loss), Jason Collins, Matt Mitrione, Cafe Patachou, CEO of Salesforce Marketing Cloud, and all the many other athletes, Businesses, and people who have boldly stood up and expressed their outrage regarding this hateful piece of legislation and their brave stance to pull out and no longer patronize the City of Indianapolis if (and now has)this ridiculous thing become law.

My God is a loving, caring, forgiving God and last I checked there wasn’t a “vacancy, now hiring” sign above His chair for anyone to take his job and sit in judgement of anyone else.

I’m proud to say—my friends are my friends, not my gay friends, black friends, white friends, mexican friends, etc…….SIMPLY MY FRIENDS!!!! PERIOD.


Yum and relaxation…


Well, been one of those days … and lucky me…I typically don’t like Australian wine…however, this was on sale fo $3.88 a bottle…(don’t judge me, I’m just happened on a good deal). I love this one. Especially the Shiraz, Shiraz-Merlot, and this one. Try it. COLD!! yes, cold.

And happens to pair well with the Poblano peppers dish…ijs…LOL

I like this chilled….even though you don’t typically chill red wine…it is super yum cold.


“Chavelier de Sangreal” by Hans Zimmer

Yesterday, I found myself in tears walking the treadmill at the gym. Not tears of sorrow but tears of spirituality. I had decided to listen to my “Classical music” playlist. A song from the movie “Da Vinci Code” came on “Chevalier de Sangreal” by Hans Zimmer. This song has always been very moving to me. I cry every time I hear it. It is played at the end of the movie when Robert Langdon figures out where the sarcophagus of Mary Magdalene has been moved to and rests. He recites the message from the cryptex during the song:
“The Holy Grail ‘neath ancient Roslin waits. The blade and chalice guarding o’er Her gates. Adorned in master’s loving art, She lies. She rests at last beneath starry skies.”

This song is one of the very few that finds its way deep into my soul. Do you know what I mean? A song so melodically beautiful, so perfect, so amazing it brings you to tears.
It started me thinking about Lent. Lent is various things to various people. For me I always find it makes me reflect on my own spirituality, who I am, what God and Jesus mean to me, my faith. I reflect on all that Jesus went through. How uplifted I feel singing songs on Easter Sunday for the resurrection. For some reason, this time of the year I always feel spent. Out of breath. And yet, there always seems to be some miracle, coincidence, or divine intervention that happens. Something to spark my internal fire to say “hey….what is happening….get up woman and praise God, He has never let you down”. Time and time again I have had “things” happen to me that could be interpreted as any number of things….but walking on that treadmill Sunday, that was divine. Huge snowflakes began to fall like angelic tears from Heaven and I felt renewed. This last year and a half has been for a lack of better terms, hell. I have marched through it with the help of family and friends, my pink ribbons and God’s armor of favor. It has certainly tested my faith. To believe or not to believe. I know this Easter Sunday; I will once again find my renewal in all the trumpeting Easter Lily’s, happy bright yellow daffodils, Angelic music, the word of God and love of the risen Christ.
There is a dialogue at the end of the movie between Robert Langdon and Sophie:
“Okay, maybe there is no proof. Maybe the Grail is lost forever. But, Sophie, the only thing that matters is what you believe. History shows us Jesus was an extraordinary man, a human inspiration. That’s it. That’s all the evidence has ever proved. But… when I was a boy… when I was down in that well Teabing told you about, I thought I was going to die, Sophie. What I did, I prayed. I prayed to Jesus to keep me alive so I could see my parents again, so I could go to school again, so I could play with my dog. Sometimes I wonder if I wasn’t alone down there. Why does it have to be human or divine? Maybe human is divine. Why couldn’t Jesus have been a father and still be capable of all those miracles? Well, here’s the question: A living descendent of Jesus Christ – would she destroy faith? Or would she renew it? So again I say, what matters is what you believe.”

Whether human, divine, or both……I chose to believe. It has brought me this far, and continues to sustain me.

No means No…who is really to blame

Please  watch  the  attached link.

Chaz Smith makes a terrific statement about what we are taught  as  men and  women and  how  it  affects  our perspectives. …

He speaks on how  men/boys are  taught to  be  aggressive,  play  sports and  woman  are  told to  play  safe,  be careful. ..but  the  same  people  you  tell  your  wives,  sisters, mothers  to  be  “aware ” of  are  you  (men)…

Instead  of  teaching  your  sons  to  be  aggressive they  need  to  be  taught  to  be  respectful,  loving and caring. 

Powerful  message. …please  check  it  out. ..

Happy Birthday to my Lovely Mom


Happy Birthday Mom!! You are an amazing woman. You have been through so much these last couple years with me and for you and I can’t tell you how much I appreciate all the love and support you have given me. Always a listening ear and good advice. Even though some times it has been tough we still found a way to laugh through the pain, the anger, the fearful moments, and the tears.

You help me to focus, de-stress, and BREATHE! Thank you.

I honor the place in you in which the entire universe dwells. I honor the place in you which is of love, of truth, of light and of peace. When you are in that place in you and I am in that place in me, We are one.

I love you


Wrapped in Blue Ribbons



When you are sorrowful look again in your heart, and you shall see that in truth you are weeping for that which has been your delight ~Khalil Gibran

Today my heart is heavy and wrapped in blue ribbons.

My longime sister friend of over 20 yrs lost her courageous battle with colon cancer yesterday. It was only one year ago that she was diagnosed. She fought hard through the pain and remained steadfast in her faith and love of God.

She was an amazing woman….brilliant nurse, loving mother, dedicated wife, helping hand, a gentle soul. I am truly blessed to have had the privilage to call her my friend. God has called another Angel home. Fly free Michelle VanCamp McCarthy, be received and wrapped in His arms of love; your fight is over and it is time to walk in His grace, love and comfort. I love you and you will never be forgotten, forever etched in my heart.